As I've mentioned before, Steve and I are once again on a search for the church through which God wants us to identify ourselves as members of the Body and to serve Him at this stage of our lives. This quest has brought two very different churches into our focus for consideration. One is very close to where we built our new house, and the other is the church of my early childhood.
Both have tremendous, "winning" qualities. One is in a rural setting but has a very modern and trendy approach in terms of worship style, outreach, terminology, and vision. The other is "downtown" and has a 190-year-old history and a rich tradition of excellence and solid faith in its preaching and teaching. The final choice will be made by Steve as the spiritual leader of our home, but I trust him to know my heart and to make a decision that will ultimately be best for both of us. (Ah, the joys of living with a godly man for 40 years).
It has been during our visits to my childhood church that I have fully and finally embraced some aspects of my early years that I undoubtedly knew on some level before but now get the amazing opportunity to savor at this juncture in my journey.
1) I had a great childhood.
And, 2) My salvation was personal and very real.
My parents. Oh my goodness. I could spend hours talking about their love for each other, for me and my siblings, for their extended family, and for their church. Growing up in the '50s, that was my world -- home, cousins/grandparents/aunts/uncles, and church (well, school came into play after I turned 6, but that's a subject for another day). But, what I've understood recently is the significant impact all of the people
inside that church had on me. My parents had a strong support network in rearing me, and many of those people (or THEIR children) are
still working and teaching and nurturing in that church.
The first Sunday that we attended Sunday School I walked into a ladies' class and introduced myself as Connie Collier Pearson. A voice behind me said, "No. Your name isn't Connie. It's Rose!" I couldn't believe my eyes or my ears. I turned to see the face of a lady who had been my Vacation Bible School teacher when I was about 7 years old. She remembered something that I had completely forgotten. My baby sister had just been born, and I must have needed some special attention that week. When I walked into my room on the first morning, they were busy making name tags, and since I was there every Sunday, I knew that they would quickly write "Connie." I said, "I want to be called Rose, please" (which was my middle name), and for that whole week, that was my name. And to make this even more remarkable, that is the ONLY time in my life that I've been called Rose. Ann Wallace Glaze remembered me and that incident for 53 years!!!
She is one of so many teachers I had during my first 10 years of life who invested their time and their faith into me, and I am so deeply grateful. Training Union, Sunbeams, children's choir, Vacation Bible School, Junior Memory drill -- I did it all, and there was a "
great cloud of witnesses" surrounding me at every turn.
Even though I wasn't fully aware of it at the time, I know now what a valuable encouragement it was to me and to my parents. And even today, this realization is a powerful motivator for the rest of my life. I have a new prayer for my children as they are rearing our grandchildren. "Dear Lord, please provide a strong, wise, godly support network for them. Surround each child with loving examples of genuine faith, and place people in each of their lives who will notice and remember even the smallest details that reveal their needs and their heart. Allow this supporting cast to cheer them on in life's path."
"Therefore, since we have so great a cloud of witnesses surrounding us, let us also lay aside every encumbrance, and for the sin which so easily entangles us, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us." Hebrews 12:1Then, just yesterday morning as we were leaving Sunday School and headed to the worship center, I noticed a doorway that looked familiar. We had a few minutes, so I asked Steve to follow me and allow me to explore a little. When we walked through the doorway, the first thing on my right was the entrance to the original church sanctuary, built in 1949. My parents stood in that entrance and were pronounced man and wife in June of 1949. The sanctuary wasn't quite completed yet, but they were determined to be "the first couple married in the new church," so by having their ceremony in that entrance, their names were included in the cornerstone -- a great source of pride for my Mom. :)
We went up the steps on the left, and I found myself in the sanctuary where I worshipped as a child. I had been there 25 years ago for my mother's funeral but was too consumed with grief to think of much else on that day. But, yesterday, I was bombarded with pictures of the past. I could "see" my granddaddy singing tenor in that choir loft. I could show Steve the second row pew where we sat many times, so we "could be close to the front when my Dad needed to make the Sunday School report." I could point to the place where the grand piano used to be. So many Sundays I watched spellbound while the pianist played (Martha Singleton) and wanted to play just like she did. But, the most sacred spot in the whole room was about 8 rows back on the left side. That was where the Holy Spirit drew me to Himself. I can vividly recall the "heart about to beat out of my chest" feelings that I had during the invitations for several Sundays in a row. At one point, I even
crawled under the pew (literally!) trying to hide from whatever this powerful feeling was. I knew I needed to do something, and I knew that God was speaking directly to me. Finally, on an October Sunday morning in 1958, Brother Kermit Gore preached on heaven, and all the Bible lessons I'd had in my life came together. I comprehended that in order to go to heaven, Jesus had to be the Lord of my life. I didn't need anyone to walk with me. I left the pew, walked down the aisle, and with tears of relief, I told Brother Gore that I wanted to ask Jesus into my heart. The battle that had been going on during those weeks was finally over, and I think it is BECAUSE of that intense and physical struggle I experienced with the Holy Spirit that I have never doubted my salvation. I walked down that very aisle again yesterday and saw the same baptistry where I was baptized a week later and sobbed again as I shared my salvation story with Steve. It HAD been real, and it was extremely personal. And for the past 52 years it has made ALL the difference.
To the present members of First Baptist, Athens -- Your church had a profound impact on my life for which I will be eternally grateful.
To the parents of young children who might read this -- I can't stress to you enough how important the sights, sounds, and experiences of those early years are for your children. Please be sure that you are in a church that will surround you and "yours" with the truth of God's word and with godly role models. Also, never doubt that the Holy Spirit can work in the life of a very young child.
To those who are saved -- Share your salvation testimony with someone today. It will bless both you and the person who hears it.
To those who aren't saved -- "
If you confess with your mouth Jesus as Lord, and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you shall be saved." Romans 10:9To Steve -- thank you for allowing and encouraging me during these past few weeks. This time to relive and remember has given me special insight and strength. I know you will make the best choice for us and our future.