How did I end up in the emergency room yesterday?
It's like this. As I was getting ready for my Monday morning Bible study, I bent over to pick something up off the floor and started having painful spasms in my abdomen. Something felt like it had popped or twisted. Strange. Since I no longer have an appendix, a gallbladder or a uterus, they couldn't be causing problems. Maybe, I thought to myself, it's just a twitch of some kind that will subside if I just go along with my plans.
I made it to the Bible study and even enjoyed lunch with great friends -- with occasional spasms and twitches still happening. As I drove around town running a few errands before heading back home (25 minutes away), the pain started getting worse and when I felt in my lower abdomen, something hard or tight was there. Immediately, flashes of Steve's emergency surgery last year for two strangulated hernias started whirling frighteningly through my mind. What if I drove all the way home and got WORSE -- an even longer distance away from Steve or any kind of help?
I reached Steve at work and described what was happening. He called our family doctor, who is 45 minutes away in Hartselle (I know, I know, we need to find one closer, but we've known and trusted this doctor for so many years now -- almost 40, in fact). The office said that he was about to leave for a meeting but could see me in the morning. They recommended that I go to Parkway Medical Center E.R. in Decatur -- the same place where Steve had gone when he had his emergency. So, I clutched the steering wheel and drove toward that destination. Even though Steve almost never has his cellphone handy while he's working, he promised to keep it close by.
When I walked in the door of the E.R., I was doubled over in pain. Tension and fear were "doing a number" on my body by this time. The process was quick. I was registered, through triage, and in a room in only about 15 minutes. Whew! Even though the visions of emergency surgery were still plaguing my thoughts, I was at least where Somebody could do Something, if Something indeed needed to be done.
What happened during the 3 hours that I was there?
Just as I got "situated" and was waiting to be seen about, my daughter Laura sent me a text saying that she'd been asked to write an article for a magazine and was sharing her excitement. When I texted back about where I was, she simply typed the word "praying." What peace for a Momma's heart.
From the first appearance of the nurse, I could feel myself getting calmer. With her trained hands, she began to pinpoint and help me define the source of my pain. And no, I'll go ahead and answer the question that my son succinctly texted to me hours later: "Was it just gas?" Mr. Compassion strikes again. No, gas was not involved.
After her preliminary exam, we both began to think it might be just a pulled muscle, but "the doctor would be in shortly, some tests would be run to rule out anything more significant, and we'd wait for the results." Yay. A plan.
Everyone I interacted with yesterday was wonderful. They were all -- from the doctor to the lab techs to the X-ray personnel --kind and competent. They reassured me that I had made the right decision to come and be checked out, and they were so very respectful of my fears and feelings. As my body relaxed, my pain subsided.
By the time the doctor came in to tell me that all test results were negative and to give me some instructions, etc., I was breathing easier and doing much better. I walked out of the E.R. in the upright position and called Steve to bring home Steak-Out for supper, because the kitchen was closed for the night. :)
What did God bring to my mind through this crisis?
I thought of two women in particular.
One was Ruth Cost, a dear friend and former prayer partner who died quite a few years ago. She was a nurse, a widow, a beloved member of the church we joined, and one of the first people we met when we moved to Hartselle in 1973. I remembered visiting her in the hospital after she'd had an extremely painful surgery that removed a section of one of her lungs. In the middle of horrible agony and in a semi-conscious state, she was STILL kind and considerate to every nurse and hospital staff member who came into her room. I was amazed that she was able to do that, but I knew it was the result of YEARS of conditioning and practice. It was her "default" manner of responding to whatever life threw her way. I wanted to be like Ruth Cost to each person who came into my cubicle yesterday. I tried hard. I did not want to be selfish, whiny and demanding. Oh, I realize that yesterday wasn't much of a test compared to what so many people face. Maybe it was just my chance to practice imitating Ruth and her unfailing kindness.
I also thought of Grannie, Steve's mom who died last July. She made many trips to the Emergency Room between 2002 and 2011. When she was feeling a lot of anxiety or pain, she must have felt very frightened and alone. I could understand a little more about why she felt the urgency to get to the E.R. As I did yesterday, she knew that once she arrived there would be people who could figure out what was wrong and "make it all better." I wish I had understood that more clearly before she died.
God reminded me that He has continued to grant me good health so that I can bring Him glory. He doesn't NEED me in order for His work to be done, but He's still choosing to use me. He still desires to hear "Yes, Lord" as my automatic response to His voice. Thank you, Father, for the precious gift of a new day.