This is our first Easter since Steve's mom died. I found one of her recipes that was included in the cookbook that Central Baptist in Decatur put together a few years ago. Since many Easter memories for my children revolve around lunches and egg hunts at her house, it seemed appropriate somehow to fix her pork roast for tomorrow. It won't be as good as hers was, but maybe the flavors will be similar. It will be great to share the day with Julie, Brian and their 5 children, but, naturally, I wish ALL the kiddoes and grandkiddoes could be here too. They, however, are exactly where they need to be -- in their own churches (in faraway Arkansas :)), teaching their children the truths of Easter, and building memories of their own.
A big part of tomorrow's significance for me revolves around the first choir anthem that we will sing called "I Am." Among the words are these:
I Am the Root of David, the Bright and Morning Star.
I Am the Lion of Judah.
I Am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the end.
I Am faithful and true. I Am the Word of God.
I Am the Spotless Lamb.
I Am the resurrection.
I Am alive forever.
I Am the King of Kings and Lord of Lords.
I Am. I Am. I Am the great I Am.
On Wednesday night, January 22, 1986, my Mom practiced this anthem with her choir at First Baptist Church of Troy, AL. She came home that night raving about the wonderful song they had worked on and told my Dad how very much she loved it. She was an alto -- just like me.
The following Saturday morning, she suffered a brain aneurysm and on Monday night, January 27, she died. Exactly one week after she sang "I Am" at choir practice, that same choir filled the choir loft to overflowing and sang it for her funeral. I have heard the song several times since that day, but I've never been in a choir actually singing it myself . . . until tomorrow. In her memory and to the glory of Jesus Christ, I really want to be able to sing it. . . without weeping.
It has become abundantly clear to me as I've pondered this through the years that within seconds of her departure from her earthly life, she was in the presence of her Lord and Savior, the King of Kings and Lord of Lords. She has spent the past 26 years singing praises and worshiping. I am convinced that when she has heard Jesus say, "I Am." She has answered with humility and gratitude, "Yes, You Are."
What a beautiful post, Momma. For years I sort of "missed" the significance of God calling Himself "I AM." I have recently heard some great commentaries on it that have brought new meaning to me. One writer said that He said "I Am", not "I was" or "I will be". I AM in your circumstances, where you are right at this moment. He is present. He is now. I like that. Another way I heard it put was that you can fill in the blank with any of those things you know He is and that you need at a particular time. "I am. . . Provider, Sustainer, Savior, Father, Defender of the Fatherless, Lover of my Soul. . . " I now understand and LOVE that He is "I Am" in every circumstance.
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